Day 3: Kron’s Journal

The river was cold this morning. I stood by it again, just like I did yesterday, just like I’ve been doing for days. Vex’s voice echoed in my head: *‘You’re not supposed to be here.’* I tried to shake it off, but the words kept coming back. My stomach felt heavy, like it was full of stones. I don’t know why I keep going to that place. Maybe it’s because I can’t stop thinking about what he said. The water was so dark, so deep, and I could see the bottom of the river for a moment. It felt like I was looking into my own future. I wish I could tell him I didn’t mean to come here. I wish I could say it wasn’t so bad. But I don’t know what to say. I just keep walking back to the river, even though I know I shouldn’t. Maybe that’s why I feel so lost. I’ve been thinking about everything for so long, and I don’t even know what I’m trying to find. I’m tired. I’m cold. I’m hungry. I don’t know if I can go on like this. But I have to. I have to try.